sunday

Sunday, I can honestly say that I love sundays. I love getting all dressed up for church and wanting to go learn something new. I love seeing all my friends, and all my friends parents for that matter. I love being one of the oldest in Young Womens, and I hope the little beehives look up to me the way I used to look up to the older girls. I love seeing all the Young Men looking so clean and sharp, because sunday is the only day they will do that. I love singing the hymns, because for some reason they make me feel better inside. I love coming home in a good mood, and my father is waiting to blow it. He always makes fun of me. I love sunday dinner. Mmmm, sunday dinner :) It's the only day my mom actually cooks, which makes me look forward to it even more. I love my home when it's quiet and I can just read my scriptures in peace. Oh, and I love sunday naps. Sunday naps tie it all together.

So Sunday, I will see you in a week.

ughhhh

you've made my life so difficult and you dont even know it.

my beautiful best friend

I love you Ashley Marie.

because you are the greatest friend anybody could ask for
because you are always there for me when I need you most
because I love our crying sessions
because whenever I see your face it makes me happy
because you have the funniest laugh
because we finish eachothers sentences
because we both love basketball
because you know exactly what to say at the right time
because we are going through the same thing right now
because you make me happy
because you tell me what time to get on the bus in the morning :)
because I can be my crazy self around you
because you can be your crazy self around me
because we don't need them.
because you are so darn cute
because high schools made us closer
because you are in my computer 10 class
because you know me more than anybody else does
because I can talk to you about anything and everything
because we look good together :)
because your my best friend

rihanna says it best

These last couple days have been hard for me. I honestly couldn't tell you why. With the ridiculous amount of homework on my plate and keeping in touch with friends and family after a while gets stressful. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends and family more than anything in the world, but don't you ever just want to shut the world out and be alone? There are more than 6 billion people on this earth. There's no way I'll ever be alone even if I wanted too. As school progresses, and my routine seems to be the same almost everyday. Get up, get ready, go to school, hopefully learn something, come home, go to bed and then do it all over again the next day. Life can be so boring at times. 


I better be grateful for the "boring" moments in my life because sooner or later they will end. I will be graduating from high school in 2 years, going to college, and then eventually I will get married. Wow, what a crazy thought. I have absolutely no idea what I want to be when I get older. Everybody keeps asking me what I want to do with my life. My parents ask me almost everyday and it seems like that's the only thing I talk to them about. The whole college thing seems to be way to confusing for me right now. They ask me where and what I will do when I'm done high school. And as of right now, I don't know. But hopefully someday when they ask me again, I'll know. 


But right now, I'm just going to live my life. 

The Futures Unknown

those butterflies are back

Everytime I see your face, you try and put on a smile. When I hear your voice, the butterflies inside my stomach take off. You try and hold back what's really happening in your life. No one can understand your trials the way I do. When your pushing the rest of the world out, let me in. Sometimes people come into your life, and you know right away that they are supposed to be there. You've taught me so many things.

you taught me to appriectate my loved ones, because any minute they could be gone

you taught me to love the simple things in life; like the sound of rain or looking up at the stars at night

you taught me to never give up on my dreams

you taught me theres more to life then just living it

you taught me to be honest with myself and others

you taught me that no ones family is perfect

you taught me to not judge others for who they are

you taught me talent comes with hard work

you taught me that we all make mistakes; and that it's okay

you taught me that life's beautiful

So I'm done hiding.